This Is My Sins This Is My Punishment

My Punishments

2010-07-17T12:50:00.003+08:00

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I Dont Know What To Say Anymore

Im Wasted In My Own Misery

Cause I Can No Longer Held That Dreams With You

Seems That You're Leaving Me?

You Throw Me High & Whispered

" I Will Catch You As You Fall "

But As I Was In Mid Air

I See You Walked Away With Him

Only To Left Me Crushing Down

But I Managed To Stand Back

I Wouldnt Be Defeated That Easily

I Know I Can Overcome This Hurdles Inside My Mind

Though This Body Is Wounded Now,

I Take It As Its Been Hurt By Someone Special Enough

That Managed To Hurt Me

Despite The Fact That You Told Me You Dont Wanna See Me Hurt

But I Was Wondering

Why Didnt You Close Your Eyes

As You're Hurting Me?

Im Still In A Crossroads

Cant Make Up My MIND MIND MIND mind mind!

Hehe!

But Im Still Living In An Optimistic Manner

Determined Enough To Wait For You.

Lying through my face, its nothing ordinary?

2010-05-10T23:46:00.006+08:00

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Its Not Helping Me & You

I Have To Give In And Stop The Situation

Only To Be Left With Pure Curiousness

Which IS Driving ME Crazy

You Just Love Doing This To Me,Dont You?

Im Not Blaming You

You May Have Your Reasons For Doing It

Im Not Being Dishonet To You, Ever.

But How Come Im Feeling It From You?

I Rather Die Than Let You Get Away

2010-05-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

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One day, I Know That There Will Be Light

For Both Of Us, To Step Into It

I Know Its Not A Dream That Im Giving To You

But A Reality That Is Going To Happen

Because Of You, Im Happy

When I Was At The Peak Of Missing You,

I Was Woken Up By The Trance

That After A While I Realize

You Have Left Me......

Ive Wasted The Days With You, Not Spending Time Together

Instead I Let That Emotion Control Me

Kept A Distance From You Cause I Cant Seem To Speak

When Im With You, You Left Me Speechless...

The Shadow Of Your Hands Waving

Still Runs In These Mind, As You Leave...

The Clouds On My Side Seems To Be Dark Always

Theres No Light Shining Through It

But I Know One Day, You Will Clear It

And Shine Upon Me...

Let Me Tell You, If You Were To Read This, Hopefully

You Are Like A Flower Who Blooms In My Heart

And I Hope You Blooms Forever

You Are Like A Star Shining On Me

And I Hope You Will Always Shine On Me

Youre Always In My Mind, As Long As I Live

When I Miss You, This Love Grows More....

I Think I Stop Here, I Dont Want It Sounds To Be More Emo.... Sorry Peeps, But I Just Wished

Everything Turns Out The Way I Expect It To Be

Choke upon those false impression

2010-04-24T00:41:00.003+08:00

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First Week Of School

Fun, Bored, Enthu....

Standard Feeling For School

Made A Few Friends

Those On Going Ones, My Type

Get Along With Them Fine

Time Table Not A Real Issue For Me

Acceptable, I Dont Have To Rush Here And There

Been Busy With Mass Dance That We Performed On Thursday

Woo, Tectonik Featuring Indian Dance & I Forgot One More

It Was All Fun And Awesome....Everybody Enjoyed

Though We Didnt Win, But It Was Alright....

To Add On I Love The Shirt They Made, Mine Is Morpheus...

Yea Cool.!

During Class I Have This Habit

Of Sleeping For 10 Mins

Though I Tried To Keep Myself Distracted

By Eating Chewing Gum Or Keep My Eyes Open

But Failed

And The Weird Thing Is That

Inside My Mind I Know Im Not Sleeping

And Still Hearing What The Lecturer Was Speaking About

But These Eyes Went Shut!

Only To Be Waken Up By Person Bside Me

Thats When He Gave Me A Jolt And I Finally Wake Up After That

.......

Though I Was Kept Busy The Whole Time

This Mind Still Manage To Wander Off To You

I Dont Know Why

But At Times I Just Hope That You Were Beside Me

All The Time, Keeping Me Awake

I Knew You Would .

Everday I Pray To God, Hoping You Would Be Moved By Me

And We Move On Together.....

I Miss You Like Nobody Would

How Long Must I Wait?

How Long This Heart Have To Cry?

How Long Must This Soul Be Cheated With False Love?

Only Picture Of You And Me

Kept My Days Warmth With Sincerity

But I Am Not Sure If That Would Last Me Long Enough....

Im Scared To Move On Without You

Yet Im Scared To Look Back And Cry On Those Memories You Left Me

This Post Can Get Longer And Longer

And Its All About How I Long Wanting You To Be By My Side

If Only 1 Day God Would Grant Me This Wish

That Enough , Would Satisfy Me

The Remedy Of Us

2010-04-07T23:58:00.004+08:00

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I Have To Admit

Every Single Time When I Play This Song

You Came Running In My Mind

Reminiscing All The Collected Memories Of You & Me

Oh God, Is This A Trial For Me?

Though Its Just A Song

But The Lyrics & The Things We Did

At The Time The Song Was Played

Left A Scar Deep Inside Of Me

Everything Was Perfect

But Theres Only 1 Thing....

You're Like A Rose Born With Torns All Over It

You're Protected

You're Loved

& You're Not Mine

Too Bad I Cant Have The Rose To Be Hold

I Cnt Be Selfish

I Cnt Take Whats Not Mine

But At The Same Time

Why Cant I Take My Happiness

Now We're Drifted Apart

Further From Reality

Theres No Way Our Paths Gonna Collide

I Dont Have Any News Of You

I Dont Know How You're Doing

But As Long You're Happy

Im Content

Sometimes You Left Me A Peaceful Dream

& When Im Awake The Thought Of You Crossed My Mind

I Just Wish I Could See You Again

Just By Lookng Into That Eyes Of Yours

The True Feelings Inside Of Me Was Felt

And I Know You're Gonna Fade Away Again

Never Knew Pain Exist In Me

2010-04-03T23:54:00.003+08:00

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Worn Out, Fatigue, Drained Out ...

And INJURIES

All Of These Featuring FUN

That Was What I Had The Whole Day

At Sentosa

With All The Campers FOC

Superb Experience And Perfect Moments

Reached There At Noon

Only To See The Others Seated Down

While Some Were Having Fun

So We Put Our Stuffs And Joined In The Fun

Played Frisbee, Volleyball And Soccer

Really Fun Man, When Everyone's Playing ...

Though It Kept Raining But Just A Drizzle

Lucky NO Sun...haha!

After All The Fun My Group Went For A Swim

Since It Was Boring Just Playing With Water

We Decided To Played Pranks On Our Groupies

Carried Them From Land & Threw Them Inside The Sea

Some Did Some Stunts & Jump While Holding On To Them

In The End, They Took TurnS To Step Onto Me And Jump

Now I Got Cramps On My Leg

Back Sprained & Shoulder Ache

Like Working Out

Finally We Had Enough Of The Beach

And Decided To Pack Up, Get Changed And Leave

Head To Vivo For Our Dinner At 7

I Was Damn Toot Hungry That I Ate

Chicken Rice & Fried Cockles Kway Teow

Still I Was Hungry

WTF!

AAfter Dinner We Played The Dare Game

And It Was Damn Funny

All The Dare That They Came Up With Was Stupid Yet Classic

Imagine At Vivo, Packed With The Public

And You Holding A Rubbish Bin ( Yea The One You See At Shoping Centre)

Carried It And Went Down The Escalator WITH IT

Changed It With The One Below And Went Back Up Again

With The Other Rubbish Bin...HAHA!

The Facial Expression Of The Passer By Was Priceless

They Were Like

" Wat the fcuk is this guy doing "

I Couldnt Take It, That I Burst Out Laughing

There Were A Lot More Dares But That Was One Of The Best

I Took Almost Two Hour To Reach Home, WHY?

Because I Had Difficulty Walking

It Hurts Alot

Still It Wouldnt Stop Me From Having My Supper AT Home

Surprised To See

Father Brought 1 Big Piece Of Chicken Cutlet For Me

YEA!

Going Sleep Soon,Cant Stand The Pain & Fatigue

The Ups & Down

2010-04-01T23:24:00.004+08:00

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She Came Back To Me

And We Mended The Wounds Together

I Just Wanna Say Thanks To You, Wife

For Giving Us A Chance To Get Back What We Used To Be

Everything Seems Find Now,Yea!

Basically We Just Spent Some Time Together Yesterday

I Forgotten Where I Went Other Than The Library

With My 2 Bros

Standard La, When Theres Moon, There Must Be Mus & Naim

We Are Like

....MNM...

Then They Left Me All By Myself

Since They Have Something On

Few Mins,She Came

Fooh Like Princess....

But A Blind One Ah (hehe,joking)

Saw Me But Wasnt Sure It Was Me

Cause Cant See

Must Wait For Me To Greet Her

Like Princess pfft!

Acompanied Me All The Way Till Library Close

Head To Mac

Cause My Stomach Is Calling For Food

2 Double Cheese And An Apple Pie

Went In

But Still Hungry

zzzzzzz

Oh, And We Kept Searching For Handsome Guys And Pretty Girls

All The Way

She Showed Me A Girl (who she thinks is pretty)

But Not For Me

eeeeee...haha

Yet She Forced Me To Agree With Her

Weird, I Know

Im Used To It

heheh

I Really Got Nothing Much To Say Ah

N I Think I Gt Dumber Now Since Not Been Studying

My English Now Broken Also

Crap....

Today Went Gym

And Was Late For Jamming

haha!

Sorry broks!

I Have To Admit

My Finger Was Not In A Good Mood With The Guitar

I Duno I Think They Cant Get Along

Cant Play Properly

Messed Up A Few Songs

After Jamm Went TO Join

My Hermes( My Group From Camp )

Didnt Expect The Number Of People To Be Lesser

Pantat

SO I Just Tagged Along

And Go With The Flow

N Was Pissed, Not Really

That They Went Dinner Without Me

I Was Kept Hungry The Whole Time

We Played Pool, Went To Arcade And Went Home

zzzz

Was A Short Event

Cause I Missed Out Most Of It

As I Went Jamming

Before I Continue To Worsen This Post

With My Broken English

I Wanna End It Here

\Sorry Wife, U Cant Cry For This Post

Nothing Emotional ahah!

And Ive Update For You

Even Though The English Is Broken

Sincere Apology To You

2010-03-20T00:33:00.004+08:00

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People Make Mistakes

Its A Matter Of How Deep Those Mistakes Were

And How Willing Are You To Forgive Them

Therefore Im Sorry To You Wife

For Misleading You Misguiding You

Though It Never Meant To Be That Way

I Just Wanna Tell You

I Wouldnt Have The Heart To Do It

This Is The Outcome

I Fear You Being Close To Me

Cause

Im Afraid You Cant Handle The Pain

That I Might Give You

Im Just A Nobody

A Sinner Strolling In The Darkness

Still Finding & Amending Those Mistakes He Made

Now That Ive Hurt You

I Cant Forget It

Its Like I Killed A Mother In Front Of Her Son

The Guilt You Live

Im Thankful For What You Have Done

One Thing I Ask Of You Is To

Appreciate Those Around You

You Never Knew

When They Gonna Leave You

& One Last Thing

I Just Wanna See You Smile And Be Happy

Continue Producing Smiles Like What Youre Doing

To The Kids

Heaven Has Sent An Angel To Them

...Be One...

Killed by His own love

2010-03-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

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From That Moment When I Turned To Look At You

I Would Said You Have The Most Beautiful Smile Ive Ever Seen

Always Been Captivated By It

Since The Day I Met You

Slowly The Flame Starts To Engulf

Every Bits Of Me

Until It Turns To Ashes

It Just Cuts You So Deep

When Love Kills Love

Burying The Feelings I Had

I Know That Everything Is Not Meant To Be For Me

Those Words & Stories I Told

Were Supposed To Come From Someone Else Not By Me

Thats The Reason Why You Were Surprised

And Didnt Expect It To Come From A NOBODY

You Know

I Did Everything Just To Put A Smile On That Face

So That I Can Live With It

& Embrace It

You Gave Me Your Heart I'll Ensure Its Safety

But I Thought This Heart Of Mine

Could Be Save When Its In Your Keep

No Longer Needed, You Threw Back

This Heart

Only To Leave It Pumping Its Last Breath

Guess I Will Never Get To Hold You

A Change In Progress

2010-02-22T22:26:00.005+08:00

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The inspiration for me to move on

Donnie Yen

For those who dont know him

His the best martial art fighter to me

IP man, 14 Blades & Flashpoint

The movie he was in

I wanna have that kind of body mass

And a lil bit of his cutting

Shoulder power~!

Have been training and pumping like madness

Not gonna stop

Until I reach my goal

If only I can have some of his fighting skills

The cool moves he has

And of course his great body

I just need someone who can push me

To my limits

Or even breaking that limit

During gymming

My Values

Persistent Perseverance & Patience

With these in mind

Im not gonna stop

Just a short post today

Nothing much to update

Now Im off

Changes

2010-02-16T21:08:00.006+08:00

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Blog Resurrected At Last

Had Hard Time Giving It A New Life

And Here It Is

Many Things Happened

People Changed

For The Worse?

I Dont Know

Didnt Know That Sometimes

The Mind Can Drift You Further From Reality

Deceiving You From The Things You Seen

And Leading You Nowhere But Isolation

Though You May Still Feel I Was The One

To Be Blamed

Partly,I Admit

But If You Think It Through

You Should Know

I Am Not That Type

Who Would Take A Knife And Slit Your Throat

And Disappear, Feeling Satisfied

I Just Want You To Be Happy

Doing All The Things I Did

Only To Be Returned By A Knife

Left Intact Inside Of Me

Thanks For That

You Didnt Know How Much I Was Taking You Didnt Know How Much I Was Suffering

But I Forget It

Cause I Remembered

A Friend Once Told Me

"Things Happened For A Reason"

I Trusted Him

And I Willingly Leaving The Things Behind

Forgetting It

Now Everything Depends On YOU

Choose The Path For Us

If You Wanna Remain This Way

I Think Thats The End

If You Wanna Forget About It

Then Its A HappyEnding For Us

Twin Once Said

" Someone Who Forgives Has A Bigger Heart "

I Know You Have It

So Forgive And Forget My Dear Girl

The Engulfing Flame

2010-01-08T15:47:00.004+08:00

Suddenly I Feel So Selfish

I Never Once Bothered About It

But Now Insecurities Stood In Front Of Me

Thinking Of You Being With Him.

When You Were By My Side,

Everything Seems So Fast & Exciting.

I Never Cared About How Bored The Things We're Doing

And The Ones Around Us

All I Think About Is You

But As Soon As You Left, All Seems Flat

My Mood Was Gone

My Mind Just Shut Off

My Soul Stranded

Everything Seems Endless Then

You Were The One Who Made My Day

Yet You Were The One Who Ruins It

When You met Him, Im So Pissed

I Dont Know Why

It Just Came All Of A Sudden, Unknowingly

Slowly Your Name Is Engraved On My Heart.

It Wouldnt Be Soon Before Long,

When It Belongs To You.....

I Do Not Have Any Reason As To Why This Heart Could Be So Fragile

Or Am I Just Busy Keep Mending With All The Lies.

I Tried To Seize Every Moment That I Could Be With You

But Somehow This Heart Is Not Capable Of Doing So

Then When Its Over, We Departed

Everything Came Crushing Down On Me....

I Felt Soo Stupid

You Are Able To Changed Me Girl

One Moment I Was Rash And Uncontrollable

Another Moment I Am Blinded And All I Think About

Is Making You Smile

But IF Doing So Makes Both Of Us Happy, Im Willing

Now Am I Starting To Hate This Heart?

For Being Indecisive

They Said "Follow Your Heart"

But What If It Cant Decide For Me?

If Things Were To Get Better For Me, Hopefully.

Let Me Tell You, That I Will Be The One That Makes You Smile, Always

The Best Ending

2009-12-31T20:48:00.009+08:00

Updating Post Finally. Have Been Kept Busy With Work And Internet Just Recontract So Took A Few Days For The New Ones To Be Delivered Had Planned Many Things And Surprises. Kept Racking My Brain, Cause I Cant Think Of Anything.

30th December Was The Best Of 2009 Really, It Was Like A Happy Ending For The Year It Came Smoothly And Created Memories

30th December (Part 1)

Went Out On A Date With Twin, Irna Ive Booked Her On That Day Cause I Know Shes A Busy Girl. Especially On Her Birthday. Decided To Wear The Same Color Code, Which Was White. Met Her At Yishun Mrt, And She Was Late! Fr 600 Seconds Nah, I Dont Mind About It Actually.

Brought Her To Plaza Sing Shopping. Told Her She Could Buy Anything And It Was All My Treat But She Doesnt Want. I Insisted And She Still Doesnt Want It. End UP Bought For Her A Beanie (BINI) And A White Shawl And Wore It As Soon As She Got It. Looks Sweet On Her. Went To Ate Ice Cream To Past Time For Later Movie, We Kept On Laughing And Smiling Non Stop And I Got A Headache From Laughing, I Know Its Weird.

We Finally Had Enough Of Plaza Sing Until Can Memorise The Places And Head Up To Vivo To Catch The Movie Sherlock Holmes At 4.20. Planned The 1st Surprise For Her To Bring Her To The Grand Cinema Hall Which Was Hall 1, It Was Called Gv Max IT Was Damn Big And Grand She Didnt Know It Was A Surprise Until I Gave A Hint. " Wah , GV MAX Pe! " With A Sinister Smile Then She Was Like, " Eyh! U Planned IT Right! " Her Face Turned Red All Of A Sudden, kelakar pe! I Managed To Doze Off Twice During The Movie But Only For A Minute OR So I Guess I Was Tired.

The 2nd Surprise, I Suddenly Brought Her To Amk Hub. Took A Cab, Purposely Emphasize On Her That We Have To Get There Fast Because Im Hungry. I Knew She Was Curious, Her Expression Shows It All " Going Amk Hub To Eat? When Theres Tons Of Food Outlets At VIVO " Curious Right.

Reach There I Told Her We Going To Fish And Co At The Entrance, I Covered Her Eyes With The White Shawl She Was Wearing. When She Open Her Eyes There, Seating In Front Of Her , Our Closest Cousin, Kak Nurul She Didnt Know About Her Presence

The 3rd Surprise, While We Were Eating, The Staffs Kept On Walking Alongside Us, With Birthday Cakes That Other Customers Ordered Them To Do. I Didnt Know That They Had The Same Surprise As Us. Oh Well, The Staffs Finally Came To Us. There Were Four Of Them. One Of Them Holding The Cake. And One Of Them (Seems Like A Bapok Type HAHA!) Ask Me Whats The Birthday Girl Name. So They Ask Twin To Stand On Top Of The Chair And They Sang Happy Birthday To Her. Her Face Was Peeping Hot When She Sat Down Really I Dont Believe It Until I Touched Her Cheeks. So Thats BLUSHING! HAaa!

4th Surprise Came When Kak Nurul Covered Her Eyes Again. I Took Her Hand And Wear For Her A Bracelet Kak Nurul Gave Her A Green(Her Favourite) Shirt. She Was Stunned Because I Told Her Earlier, That I Got No Present For Her.

Finally Went To Ate Snowfrost Before Heading Home Im Glad She Enjoyed Her Day. Everything Seems TO Turned Out Well, Great!

30th December (Part 2)

After Departing, I Went To Atiqah's Birthday Party, Which I Promised Her That I Will Turned Up But Earlier, On The Way To AMK Hub I Called Her, Claiming That I Cant Make It Cause Ive To Work Night Shift " But U Promised Seyyyy " Very Sad,Down Tone. She Was Really Disappointed (Thats My Purpose) Thats My Surprise For Her.

1st Surprise Reached There And Find Her Screaming, Not Really Screaming But A Changed Of Expression When She Saw Me. Like " WTF, Moon Came!" Kind Of Expression. Ran To Me With Excitement And Brought Me To Meet The Others. While Walking She Stopped And Hug Me. Then Suddenly, This Feeling Came. I Dont Know What Why And How But She Left ME Speechlesssss. Words All Jumbled In My Mind, I Was Silenced For A Moment But Managed To Slip Out Of It

2nd Surprise After Meeting The Others I Ask Her To Follow Me. Couldnt Find A Perfect Place, Nice And Quiet. She Was Curious Of Where We Were Going Then Found Somewhere For Herr To Seat And Close Her Eyes. Then I Took Out A Bracelet( Different From The One That I Gave To Twin) And Wear It For Her. I Dont Know But I Think She Was Like Shaking And Theres Tears In Her Eyes When She Saw The Bracelet. Hahaa! I Was Like, Scratching My Head ( I Didnt Expect This) Then She Kept On Emphasizing How Disappointed And Then Surprise, When I Nvr Came And Then Came... Just Like A Little Kid Disappointed Never Get Candy Then Jumping With Joy When Got One.

Then At 12, Some OF The Guys Planned Stupid Stuffs. Wanted To Go To The Swamp Area At That Time. I Told Them I Was Not Going ( Actually Wanted The Girls To Stay With Me) Its Bad For Them. But Then Everyone Wanted To Go,including Atiqah.... I Was Like " Alamak, Cnfirm Something Might Happen La Like This"

AS We Walk And Walk, The Area Gets Darker. Then At One Time I Got This Feeling, A Very Weird Feeling, My Back Of The Hair Starts Rising Thats When I Knew Something Going To Happen If We Continue. I Told Them Not To Went In Though I Knew They Were Braves Cause There Were Girls My Mind Was All On Them. I Dont Want Anything To Happen To Them,Especially Atiqah And I Dont Want All The Excitement Of The Day To Be Ruined Just Because OF These Stupid Stuffs. She Can Easily Got Carried Away Over Certain Things.

The Moment Came When Mus And Raid And Imran Wanted To Go IN To The Swamp Area, Lights Were Not Brightly Lit. And Some Of Them Were Already Feeling Awkward. I Was At The Back, Observing Them And Really The Feeling Is Shit! As Soon As They Wanted To Went In I Went To The Front With Mus, Imran Raid. Thats When Suddenly I Stepped Back! Few Of Them Noticed It I Asked Them, " You Guys Really Want To Go IN? " I Kept Looking Down. I Did Not Tell Them This But I Knew Something Was Infront And Knew It Was Watching US Then Mus Suddenly Took A Few Steps Infornt Before Gave A Sudden Turn ( He Saw Something) And Told Us To Quickly Back Off. Dont Look Back. I Knew He Saw Something, Can See From The Looks Of His Face It Was Like All Of A Sudden, Mus Ask TO Move Faster And Faster Until We Reach Somewhere Near The Maze. Then I Realized I Was At The Back With Mus And Atiqah. All Of Them Were Like Paced Up. Thats When The Fcuking Feeling Got Worse. At The Same Time At The Corner Of My Eye, I Saw Mus Looked Back And Said Paced Up Again So I Grabbed Hold Of Atiqah And Walk To The Front I Felt Something Behind Me At My Back, And IT Was Near Im Not Lying, The Feeling Really Sucks.

When We Reached The Maze, All Of Them Thought It Was Over But Not For Me. The Feeling Still There, Really UNcomfortable! I Knew It Followed Us For A While. Me Fathur Yais And Atiqah Did Not Went IN To The Maze, The Rest Did. Then When The Two Separate Group Were At This Particular Same Place, One Group Outside The Maze And Another Inside The Maze, Some Of Us From Both Group Smell Something,Weird Right?

When Everyone's Done We Head Back And Told Each Other What Happened What We Saw, What We Felt And What We Smell. Somehow It All Links So It Was Not A Lie. I Felt Something Mus Saw Something Some Smell Something Luckily Nothing Happened And That They Were Not In Me And Mus Position I Dont Know How They Might React If They Were Me ( Getting The Feeling ) And Were Mus ( Saw The "Worst" Thing )

If You Guys Wanna Know More, Txt Me Or Call Me. Ill Tell You.

Not Being Myself

2009-12-15T22:17:00.003+08:00

Feeling So Annoyed With Sickness. Flu,Fever,Ache And Cramps! But I Dont Feel Weak Right Now, Still In The Mood To Gym And Jog.

Went Gym With YanPalat Early In The Morning. Trained Chest And Supported Each Other And Talk Crap All The Way. Then Followed Him Home Took His Money To Repair His PSP And Bought Printer's Ink (Happy Ah Die Da Bole Main Game)

Head Back Home And Slept Back. Fcuking Irritated By This Flu And Headache. Woke Up At 3 Plus And Get Ready To Go Gym Again See What I Mean Now, I Dont Feel Weak Today Despite Falling Sick. Gym At RP With Syaheed Trained Chest Again Since Not In The Mood To Do Others. It Was Raining, Pushes Me On To Trained. I Dont Feel Sick I Dont Feel Worn Out Went Home At 7

Surprisingly After That Went Jogging With Nani Still Im Not Feeling Anything Juz Exhausted And Tired. I Dont Know Why When I Ran Im Not Gasping For Air Its Like Im Not Running I Really Am Not Myself Today!

Now When Im Home Everything Returns Headache Flu Fever Ache Cramps My Body Heating Up Gonna Watch Mentalist Now Dont Talk To Me, Im Not Myself

A Slice In The Heart

2009-12-11T22:01:00.007+08:00

You're The Queen Of The Superficial Sweet Gentle And Humble. I Can See You Looking Back At The Corner Of My Eye, Hope Our Paths Crossed Again " Thank you, see you again " If Only I Could Answered You Back " I Will See You Again " But Something Caught My Attention Before I Knew It, I've Left Your Sight

I Was Lost For A Moment. Lying On The Seabed, Hopeless I Can See Paths, But Theres No Perfect Path. I Know Nothing Is Perfect But Still Should I Hoping For The Best Of Things. I Am Still Searching For It, And Everytime It Will Come Back To Me With A Knife Stab On My Back Once Again Leaving Me Stranded And It Just Keeps Repeating Itself. Cause All That I Know Is I Know NOTHING!

Theres One Standing Right On Top Of These Stairs, Leading Me To The Best Drug. But She Seems So Far And Untouchable For Me. If Shes By My Side, I'll Have Everything. But Once Again When I Have Everything Will I Be Good Enough For Her? But I Know I Cant Have Everything

Enjoyment Is All That I Need To Vanquish All This Fcuking Feeling. Sentosa On Sunday Better Be A Worthy Plan Anybody Wanna Tag Along,Just Text Me ANYONE!

The Addict Begins Again

2009-12-05T21:00:00.007+08:00

Today Went Jamming With TOV I Have To Admit, We Getting Better But Still Rust From The Breakdown. The Feeling Started To Burn In Me Again, As Soon As I Hold The Guitar. Somehow It Has Bonded With Me ...Only The Freaking Amplifier Spoils My Performance.... It Sounded So Thrashing

Managed To Cover Up Most Of The Songs And The Best Part We Created Our Own Instrumental Song Though Its Just A Draft. But Hell It Was Epic Fir Created Unique Notes With His Bass Though He Was Sleepy And Weary, Syaheed Was Like Know When To Change The Drum Beats, And Achid Was Busy Thinking Of Notes To Edit Even Though The Notes He Played Matches With The Beat. Overall The Sound Was Great!

After That We Rushed To Find Food! Everyone Was Hungry We Went MAC, Ate Like MAD. But Somehow I Hate It I Still Feel Hungry Despite Eating BIG MAC, DOUBLE CHEESE AND TEPPANYAKI! Fcuk, I Dont Know Who Was The One Eating Is It Me Or Another Me. Then Lynn Her Friend Wan And Fir Went Home All Tired I Think. Left Me Syd Achid And Tiqs

Went Pool At Woodland Checkpoint Fun Because I Had A Lot Of TAIKO Shots But The Taiko Was Skillfull Man. Haha Syaheed And Achid Fed Up Because Of It Only Spent An Hour There Before We Head Home Da Boring Ah.... K Bye I Want To Edit The Song Ive Created Next Chapter Soon

Desires Never Gone, It Will Keep Coming

2009-12-03T23:27:00.006+08:00

Lately, Been Thinking Of Her Again

The Girl I Know Can Never Be Mine

Not YOU, Its HHER!

She's Changed From The Last Time I Seen Her (OH God Please Give Her A Hint) I Dont Know Why But There's This Feeling Of "Desire" When Everytime I Look At Her Pictures Though She Is Quite Close To My Kin

I Will Keep This Feeling Buried Until One Day You Come To Me Or When Our Paths Crossed Sometimes There Is No Reason To Keep Me Screaming Your Name

But Nothing Can Beat This Craves Of PROTEIN! Yea....HAHA! Let's Stop Being Emotional Right Now Cause I Am Not The Type. Finally Bought My "Craving Drug" Yea With The Flavour Keep Begging Me For More! I Don't Know Why But My Instincts Never Lied To Me Everytime I Have To Decide It Has To Be The First Thing That Crosses My Mind Though Sometimes I Kept Making The Wrong Choice

Ok Like Finally Saturday Jam At Chinese Garden Hope It Will Be A Great Fun Everyone Enjoy Themselves

" I rather be the one in misery than seeing my fallens down "

I Hate MISERY Especially To The Ones I Close With It Pains Me It Irritates Me It FCuking Pissed Me But I Try To Be The One Mending It

Many Times I Seeing Her Down, A Friend Of Mine I Tried To Cheer Her Up, Comfort Her Sometimes To No Avail And Everytime It Happens These Words Came Crushing In My Mind " If Only I Could Take These Feeling Of Yours Away " " Why Is It So Painful For You? " Now Im Just Glad Shes Doing Fine Dont Look Back , Keep Looking Forward You Cant Change It, It Has Happen Kept Telling Her This And To All Of You Too

And Oh To Whoever Dont Agree And Doesnt Want To Read This You Can Just Click The Button On The Top Right Of Your Freaking Screen

Spectacular Scenes

2009-11-25T23:15:00.003+08:00

Arina My Wife HAAH! The Masculine Mundzir (Will Be Uploading More On Facebook)

Let Me Update On Yesterday Chapter : Prom Night

I Got Back Home Late So Did Not Have The Time To Post

Its 1.40 am And Its Already Wednesday

So Why Not I Post Today(Later) Itself

Firstly Mus Came To My House After Fetching His Clothes

I Wanted Him To Straighten My Hair

Managed To Be Straight

But After A While The Back Start To Curls Back

TETEK!

Lucky The Front Still Straight

Then We Siap Like Girls Siul

Very The Long

We Rushed To Catch The Bus That We Rented

But Tried To Keep Ourselves From Not Sweating

And When We Reached There

Surprised To The Max Siul

At Our Own Friends

I Was Like

" Mus, Is That Aliens Or Our Friends, LAWA PE SIUL "

I Couldnt Even Recognize Them

Must Zoom In Then I Know Who Is Who

Atiqah Was Dashing

Nani Was Elegant

Zafirah Was Beautiful

Arina Was FUYOO

Faizah Was SIAL LA! LAWA

Not Forgetting The Guys Ah Eh

Fathur Was Rock On Babeh

Naim Was Hey Whatsup,Im Chill

Amirul Was Crazy

Japheth Was Winter DUDE

NOt Forgetting Our PIMP MUStaqim

Rhyme Pe

It Was An Amazing Night For Both Me And Those Who Attended

You Guys Should Know How Fun You All Had

I Dressed Like A Vampire( Many Called Me That When I Came In)

With My Red Lens And My Long Coat

Black And Red Just Go Along With It

I Guessed Red Is Still The New Black

Food Were Great Though I Did Not Have Enough Of It

Wanted To Grab More Later On

But When I Turned, They Already Cleared Up The Table

There Goes My $60

But Its Ok Cause There Were More Fun To Come

I Sat With A Bunch Of Humorous People

And Happy Go Lucky Ones

They Know When The Right Time To Have Fun

And When To Be Serious

When It Comes To Fun

There You Go, Bursting Out Into Laughter

Thanks Eh MUS NAIM N JAPHETH

For The Hilarious Things That You Guys Did

HAHA!(Mus Was Noisy The Whole Time)

There Was Lucky Draw

I Was Curious Of What They Won

And I Was Hoping I Won But Im Not That Lucky Bastard

And Japheth Was Like Keep Saying Im Sexy

He Wanna Lick Me

Horny Bastard

But You Cool DUDE

Then The Surprised Came

When I Wass Called Out For The Prom King Nominee

HAHA BACEN

The Masculine Mundzir PE!

Terperanjat Berok Siul

I Walked To The Stage On The Red Carpet

(*kiwi The Carpet Can Sleep Siul,So Shiok)

It Seemed So Lambat TO Reach The Stage

When All Eyes Were On Me

Everyone Cheered At Me

And The NA Group(My Jokeersss) And My Friends

I Thank You All For The Support

HAHA Though They Kept Doing A "t"

When I Catwalk

Cause I Look Like A Vampire

Most Expected Me To Win But UNfortunately Not

I Was Glad But At The Same Time Disappointed

Nevermind Its Ok Im Not There To Win

Dissapointed Cause

Kena Que No Linkage

Change Singapore History Kebabai Kau Syahir

Priceless Sia My Face When The Que Was Asked,Ape Siul!

Glad Because

I Wanted Jass And His Gf To Win

Cause Both Were Already Nominated

But Unfortunately Only Jass Managed To Be The Prom King

So Sorry For His Gf

And Bodoh The King And Queen Must Dance Together

I Was Like

"Eh Jass Come Down Ah, Replace Me"

I Rather Dance With The Prom Queen( Ellie/Elly haha Sorry But Congrats )

Then Seeing Both Of Them Unhappy

My Friend Siul And I Know Jass Was Unwilling...

I Can See From His Expression

Lastly We Took Alot Of Pics

I Took Alot With All My Friends

Though Some Came To Me

Quite A Long Queue(JOKING2)

I Was Honoured That They Wanted To Take Pic With Me

But I Forgot To Take With SHARUL (my all time bro)

Of All People I Forget He Pulak

Sorry!

No Wonder I Feel Like Theres Someone

I Havent Took Pic With

And I Will Be Uploading Some Of The Pics IN Facebook

So Check It Out

By The Way For Those Who Doesnt Want To Read This

I Dont Care, Dont Read Ah

Cause It Dont Matter To Me At All

Label Me Thats Fine,Cause This Is Who I Am And You Cant Change It

This Is Specially To The Fcuking Guy

Who Almost Spoilt My Mood ON That Day

If You Guys Want TO Know Who

He Was The One Who Mus Called "WHATS WITH THE HAIR !"

I Dont Need Your Fcuking Comment Lowly Shit

Cause I Know You Are Just Jealous

The Strength To Carry On

2009-11-23T22:48:00.003+08:00

Shoulders Now Cramp To The Max

So Numb That I Dont Feel Any Sense There Went Gym With Jordan Everytime I Train With Him Always Heavy Weights And I Dont Even Realize About It Joke Around Like The Gym Our Father Property

After That Went To Collect My Pants Before Heading Back To Causeway To Buy Double Cheese (Our Usual Routine After Gym) Head Back Home And Ate Again So Freaking Hungry That Double Cheese Is Not Enough

To Add On To Yesterday Post I Wanted A Schedule That Has Planned My Holiday If Only I Can Be Like Nicholas Cage And Spent This Holiday Searching For Treasures Even Though They Existed Or Not At Least Keep Me Occupied Rather Than Rotting At Home Spinning Chair Around And Stare At The Computer Screen Cant Think OF Anything To Do

Thats About All I Guess Next Chapter Will Be Prom Dont Know If Its Going To Be Fun Or Not I Dont Care All That Matters For Me Is The Food Hope Its Good, heh!

The Suffocation

2009-11-22T20:25:00.003+08:00

I Am Suffocating From This Boredom

Got Nothing Better To Do

Kept Playing DOA(Dead Or Alive)

Motivated To Unlock More Costumes For The Character

Didnt Know Time Would Be Gone That Fast

Was Not Called For Work

Damn It

Cause There Goes My Salary For The Day

If Only Theres A Schedule Of Enjoyment All Day Planned Out For Me

Maybe A Ride To Heaven Or Hell

See Whats Life There

Or Maybe The Whole Day For Me To Sleep On The Moon

Feel What It Feels Like Of MY Name

I Know Thats Crazy Of Me

Cause This Boredom Just Starting To Take Its Toll On Me

Guitar String Snapped

So Not In The Mood To Learn Any Songs

Though I Wanted To Do So

The Feeling Will Not Be The Same

Playing With Incomplete Set Of Strings,jubz!

Thats About It For Today

Looking Forward For The Next Day

Waiting For Any Excitement To POP Up

Waking Up From This Seams

2009-11-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

Blog Resurrected

Like Finally,(TO SOME)

Guess I'll Be Complaining More On My Life

After O's

The Heavy Burden Gone

Now Its Time To Compose This Funeral Song

But Feeling Of Rust In These Veins

I Could Not Play The Shit Guitar Like I Used To

I Could Not Sweep,Shred

And Kept Forgetting Notes

Despite Having Revising It Time And Time Again

The Next Chapter

Its So Regretting And Disappointing

When You Met Someone For The First Time

And Thought She Was The One

I Could Have Found A Better Way

And I Should Not Have Stayed On That Day

"You Are So Beautiful, You Are The Kind Of Girl"

"That Has The Chemicals That Make Me Fall In Love"

But You Chose The Wrong Path

If Only Ive Met You Earlier

I Could Have Mend It

Now I Realize

You're Just Another One Of My Mistakes

I Have To Pretend That This Has Never Happened

Though You Kept Running In My Mind Everytime

Blackened Days

2009-04-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

Sorry Peeps! I Think My Blog Just Suck,Yea I Know Sickening! How Do You Expect To Read The Past Posts When It Gets Smaller And Smaller As The Posts Gets On What The SHELL! Secondly,I Have Long Not Updated The Links So Another Sickening Thing Clicking On Every Link Leading You To "The Blog That Your Looking For Does Not Exist" Isnt That NICE! Yea So Thats About It Right Now Im Busy Concentrating On My Studies Cause I Dont Want To Waste This Year Man So Will Not Be Using Com Most Of The Time And Something's Bothering ME It Has Been A Burden To Me Unable To Play Activities For A Few Months Cause I Got A Tear Or Something On My Right Knee Ligament Just Went For A Checkup Today And Found Out I Have To Go To The MRI U Noe The Scanning Thing,Where U Go Through A Tunnel Damn,Just Hate It Not Mentioning The Cost Of The Treatment Total Up Its Around 700+ And I Cant Use MEDISAVE Sickening HospitalS! Man That Money Can Be Spend On A Lot Of Things So Thats All About Now, Just Concentrating On Healing This Leg Hopefully Get To The YOG Next Year And Hopefully Succeed In My Studies Whatever It Is Im Not Giving Up Even If The Odds Staked Against Me (Just Need Your Support,dear)

Keep Your Heart Broken

2009-03-31T21:52:00.000+08:00

Enfolding your love in my heart By the dawn I'll be gone The road keeps us apart For some time I'll be gone You promised to swallow your tears when I leave you You promised to follow the leads I will give you You said you would crawl in the dark from the laughter You said you would long after me ever after My love will grow black if your heart gets stolen Just promise to keep your heart One day I'll come back if the door's still open Just promise to keep your heart broken Days go by like the wind And this life is too short It makes no sense to give in To release you from my thoughts I promised to write you, I'll always remember I promised to try to be back for you forever I said I must go, I must face this disaster I said I would come after you ever after And I mean it If you just promise to keep your heart BROKEN So I'll be the one mending it .....Forever and after....

Moving To The Sub Conscious

2009-03-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

Insanity Was Circling Through My Head As I Played The Match It Was A 5 Aside Comp And Evg Participated It Unfortunately We Lost In The 2nd Round Was Enjoying The Game When My Knee Gave Way It Twisted To The Side And A Cracked Sound Is HEARD! Luckily It Went Back In Or I Think it Would Be A Dislocation I Laid Down On The Pitch Groaning In Pain Coach And The Umpire Took Me To The Bench And Consulted My Knee Guess Im Not Gonna Run For The 100m And 4x1 Next Week Utterly Disappointed Have Been Practicing A Long Time But Didn't Expect This To Happen It Going To Take Me 1 Good Week To Recover Damn! Why Must It Be This WAY! Adding To The Verging Reality Lately I Don't Know Why I Kept Thinking Of Her I Think Im Drowning,Asphyxiated Shes Not Like The Other Girls Have Been Waiting For Her And Still Clinching On To The Hopes But Shes Fading Away Away From Me Drifting Like A Feather Has The World Forsaken My Girl? In My Mind I Have Been Repeating Those Words Hopeless Me Will The Love I Put Out Will Return To Me? I Dont Want To Lose Her Like I Used To Be When You Have Love And Lost Someone ...You Know How It Feels Like To Be Left In A Lurch... Its Like A Stranded Soul Lost In The Middle Of A Highway Sorry Guys I Have Not Been Posting Lately Guess Im Not A BlogWorm Writing A Long Post Is Not My Way Provided That I Have The Mood To Write (BTW,some of the links will be updated again)

The War Was Ours

2009-02-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

Today Is Just A Bad Day For Me For The First Half OF The Day In School Sorry Class For Giving A Black Face In Class N Surprisingly,I Did Not Even Talk To Anyone Just Now Because I Had A Fight With Someone Early In The Morning! But Still I Cant Stop The Excitement In Me It Was The Match Day Evergreen VS Bukit Panjang All The Hockey Boys Were Released At 1 And I Love It HAHA! Then We Prepare And Went Through Some Formations In The Canteen Before Heading To Northland Sec For Our Match There And I Was Hoping TO See My Cuz! But Did Not Managed To Do So Oh Well When We Reached There We Were Briefed Again On Our Formations And Then Head TO THE PITCH! It Was A Thrilling Match,Seriously At First I Thought That We Were Going To Draw With The Opponent Since We Missed A Lot Of Shots! And All The Stunning Shots Were Saved By The Goalie So I Almost Give Up During The First Half And I Went For A Final Boost For The First Half Dribble Through Three Players And Head For A Shot Corner Which Was Also Missed Again When Saddam Hit It In The Keeper Saved! But The Second Half Was The Best Part We Played Above Our Standards And Saddam Scored The First Goal When He Shot High And The Ball When In On Top Of The Post After Deflecting From The Keeper Sticks Then It Was My Turn HAHA I Scored And The Shocking Part Was That I Volley A Flying Ball,Not Really Flying It Bounced But Still I Could Not HIT A BOUNCE Ball Usually But Eventually I Did IT And It Went In! AHAH! So We Won The Match 2.0 And Finally This IS For My TWIN!(cookie monster) HAHA,I Did Not See You Just Now! Hmph...Was Expecting You.... Nvm See You On Thurs OKAY! HAHA! Have Been Using That Word To Disturb Her Make Sure You Wear Specs OKAY! Heeheee.... Oh And You Want To Hear Me Sing HAHA zzzzz WELL OF COURSE(love this word) My Voice Is PRICELESS Tau! Thats Why In The Video My Voice Was Soft HAHA! N Finally I Missed You Also La TWINNY!HMPH! Always Did Not Get A Chance TO Meet And TALK! Grrrrr....Thurs TAU! Love You TOO OKAY! Ok Before I Get Carried Away Talking About Her I Guessed I End Here! Will Update Again Soon!

One Of The Memorable Days

2009-02-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

Weeks Of Practicing Have Came To An End And We DID IT! Yea,Yesterday's Performance Was Close To Perfect Just A Slight Mistake,Of Course Nothing IS PERFECT! Lets Move ON To The Performance Firstly I Met Up With My Band Mates Bought A Cable For The Bassist Before Meeting The Rest Of The People And Then Head Out To The Place When We Reached The Place My Heart Started Pumping "Ready For The Best Damn Thing Out Of Your Life" In My Mind We Went Into The "Hall" And Noticed That There Were A Few People But As I Counted The Numbers Increased To 75 Right Before Our Performance Excluding The Ones That Came During Our GIG Before We Head On To The Stage I Tune My Guitar Together With My Lead Outside Before Heading Back In THEN,Its OUR Turn We Took Our Position On The Stage And Start Fixing Our Instruments While Syaheed Did Some Drumrolls Testing Out The Drumset Before You Knew IT Syaheed Gives A 4 Beat And We Started Playing THE FLOOD Oh Hell,My Fingers Were Shaking At That Point OF Time But For Fun Sake And SOMEONE,I Forget About It BEAST AND THE HARLOT And MIA Was The Coolest And Sickest Songs Played On That Day Itself Of Course All Of The Songs Were Great But Imagine ACHIDOS, Kick Ass With The MIA N BEAST SOLO OMG And During The HArmonize Solo I Was Like UNnervous? I Just Went Infront OF The Stage And Did My Job .....And IT Went Perfectly Well..... WAN N LYNN Were Cool They Knew When To Sing And Assist Each OTHER! Syaheed Was Extraordinary Managed To Kick Ass Beast Drum SOLO Which The Funny Part Was That At The Solo Everyone On The Stage Turned And LOOKED At Him! HAHA! About Fir,I Pity For THeres No Sympathy Song But NVM You Still DID Great During MIA SOLO Where You GALLOP! MY God I Was Like "HEY MAN! I Can Hear Your Freaking Gallop That LOUD!" The Best Part Was That When You See A Bunch OF Strangers(AUDIENCE) Sat In Front,Enjoy Our Songs While VIDEOING N PICTAKING US! When We Dont Even Know THEM! Oh Yuh To All That Came Must EMPHASIZE Their Name SHARUL! SUFIAN! VANESSA! ZUL! ATIKUS! LYNN"S FRIENDS! NASUHA!(err tikus friend) Really A BIG THANK YOU TO U Guys For The Support! And IT Just Went On Great When Suddenly A Professional Cameraman Took PHOTOSHOOTS OF Us While We Were Sitting At Esplanade This Man,Suddenly Approached Us N Knowing We Are A Band Since The Way We Dressed And The Instruments We Brought So He Took Many AMAZING SHOTS OF US GROUP + INDIVIDUAL Sorry Wan,Sharul N Yan You Guys Were Already Gone At That Moment HERES SOME PICS OF IT

!My Favorite Pic!

This IS Cool With The Sun's Glares

Group Boys And Girls This Was The Funshot And Syaheed Kissed ME! DAMN IT!A Pose Suggested By The CameramanI Like THIS one!

It Turned Out Well Even Though I Hate The Jumping Thanks TO The Cameraman Skills I Guessed That' All I Will Upload The Vids If It Is Uploaded By ACHIDOS HAHA! Ok THEN "Taste Of Vengeance Till The End" Just Like Wan's Phrase

Feeling The Pressure

2009-01-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

Oh man!

Gig is 5 more days!

Damn It.....HAHA!

Im feeling the pressure

Nervous is breaking down on my veins

Screwing up is just the thing we dont wana do,OF COURSE!

Im still perfecting the songs

And so far so good

Its getting on smoothly.....

But some harmonize solo is just boiling my blood

Perfecting it needs time,and i somehow struggling with some of them

Especially Beast And The Harlot...

Oh well i juz have to keep on practicing haha!

Thats All For Today

Nothing Much,juz Spending my time finishing up

the homeworks

zzzzzzzzzzz

Back In Action

2009-01-24T15:35:00.000+08:00

WoooHooo! It Has Been _ _ Errr Dont Even Know How Many Months

I Have Not Updated So

Yea Im Back To Kill HAH!

Supposingly I Have Been MIA

Cause Im Soo Not "Lazy" To Update My Profile

Sicked N Tired Of Typing But I Think This Urge Came Back To ME Again

So Why Not I Update On The Future Hmmm....

Yea The Oncoming Event IS The GIG On 1st Feb

Have Been Spending Time With My Wife

Cleaning Her,Shredding Her N Sweeping Her For The Gig HAHA!

Yet Im Still Feeling Unprepared For This But Whatever It Is ...

THIS WAR WILL BE OURS...

Come Down And Support Us My Fallens

But I Got No One To Impress So No Motivation

My Source Of Motivation Is Unable To Attend.....Damn!

Oh Well....

Oh Yuh,Last Two Days I Had The O Level SPA\

Damn Didnt Know That IT Was Tough

Especially The Calculation Thingy

Was Struggling With The Calculation

Cause I Didnt Know What The Shell Was To Be Done At First

End Up I Forgot To Write Down The CONCLUSION

Lost 1 Mark Because Of That

Yea I Guess Thats All....

Will Be Updating Again

Have Been Wasting Time

Having A Thrilling Fight With Syaheedos

We Cant See Each Other,Consperm WIll Fight HAHA!

Got Videos Of Us Fighting....

God Of War(PART 1 - Weapons)

God Of War(Part 2 - Brawl) HAHA!

WIll Find The Time TO Upload It...

Till Then