† This Is My Sins This Is My Punishment †
† Mundzir †
† Born With An Unmasked Fear Of Annihilation
† One In His Heart Has Left Him Alone
† A Bed Of Skeletons Awaits Him On The Other Side
† Timeless His Life Was So Free
† Need An Answers For The Questions In His Subconscious Mind
† This Is My Sins This Is My Punishment †
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I Dont Know What To Say Anymore
Im Wasted In My Own Misery
Cause I Can No Longer Held That Dreams With You
Seems That You're Leaving Me?
You Throw Me High & Whispered
" I Will Catch You As You Fall "
But As I Was In Mid Air
I See You Walked Away With Him
Only To Left Me Crushing Down
But I Managed To Stand Back
I Wouldnt Be Defeated That Easily
I Know I Can Overcome This Hurdles Inside My Mind
Though This Body Is Wounded Now,
I Take It As Its Been Hurt By Someone Special Enough
That Managed To Hurt Me
Despite The Fact That You Told Me You Dont Wanna See Me Hurt
But I Was Wondering
Why Didnt You Close Your Eyes
As You're Hurting Me?
Im Still In A Crossroads
Cant Make Up My MIND MIND MIND mind mind!
Hehe!
But Im Still Living In An Optimistic Manner
Determined Enough To Wait For You.
Labels: All This Dreamss
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 7/17/2010 12:50:00 PM.
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Its Not Helping Me & You
I Have To Give In And Stop The Situation
Only To Be Left With Pure Curiousness
Which IS Driving ME Crazy
You Just Love Doing This To Me,Dont You?
Im Not Blaming You
You May Have Your Reasons For Doing It
Im Not Being Dishonet To You, Ever.
But How Come Im Feeling It From You?
Labels: You left me speechless
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 5/10/2010 11:46:00 PM.
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One day, I Know That There Will Be Light
For Both Of Us, To Step Into It
I Know Its Not A Dream That Im Giving To You
But A Reality That Is Going To Happen
Because Of You, Im Happy
When I Was At The Peak Of Missing You,
I Was Woken Up By The Trance
That After A While I Realize
You Have Left Me......
Ive Wasted The Days With You, Not Spending Time Together
Instead I Let That Emotion Control Me
Kept A Distance From You Cause I Cant Seem To Speak
When Im With You, You Left Me Speechless...
The Shadow Of Your Hands Waving
Still Runs In These Mind, As You Leave...
The Clouds On My Side Seems To Be Dark Always
Theres No Light Shining Through It
But I Know One Day, You Will Clear It
And Shine Upon Me...
Let Me Tell You, If You Were To Read This, Hopefully
You Are Like A Flower Who Blooms In My Heart
And I Hope You Blooms Forever
You Are Like A Star Shining On Me
And I Hope You Will Always Shine On Me
Youre Always In My Mind, As Long As I Live
When I Miss You, This Love Grows More....
I Think I Stop Here, I Dont Want It Sounds To Be More Emo....
Sorry Peeps, But I Just Wished
Everything Turns Out The Way I Expect It To Be
Labels: It Starts Again
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 5/03/2010 10:17:00 PM.
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First Week Of School
Fun, Bored, Enthu....
Standard Feeling For School
Made A Few Friends
Those On Going Ones, My Type
Get Along With Them Fine
Time Table Not A Real Issue For Me
Acceptable, I Dont Have To Rush Here And There
Been Busy With Mass Dance That We Performed On Thursday
Woo, Tectonik Featuring Indian Dance & I Forgot One More
It Was All Fun And Awesome....Everybody Enjoyed
Though We Didnt Win, But It Was Alright....
To Add On I Love The Shirt They Made, Mine Is Morpheus...
Yea Cool.!
During Class I Have This Habit
Of Sleeping For 10 Mins
Though I Tried To Keep Myself Distracted
By Eating Chewing Gum Or Keep My Eyes Open
But Failed
And The Weird Thing Is That
Inside My Mind I Know Im Not Sleeping
And Still Hearing What The Lecturer Was Speaking About
But These Eyes Went Shut!
Only To Be Waken Up By Person Bside Me
Thats When He Gave Me A Jolt
And I Finally Wake Up After That
.......
Though I Was Kept Busy The Whole Time
This Mind Still Manage To Wander Off To You
I Dont Know Why
But At Times I Just Hope That You Were Beside Me
All The Time, Keeping Me Awake
I Knew You Would .
Everday I Pray To God, Hoping You Would Be Moved By Me
And We Move On Together.....
I Miss You Like Nobody Would
How Long Must I Wait?
How Long This Heart Have To Cry?
How Long Must This Soul Be Cheated With False Love?
Only Picture Of You And Me
Kept My Days Warmth With Sincerity
But I Am Not Sure If That Would Last Me Long Enough....
Im Scared To Move On Without You
Yet Im Scared To Look Back
And Cry On Those Memories You Left Me
This Post Can Get Longer And Longer
And Its All About How I Long Wanting You To Be By My Side
If Only 1 Day God Would Grant Me This Wish
That Enough , Would Satisfy Me
Labels: I will wait no matter how long it takes
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 4/24/2010 12:41:00 AM.
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I Have To Admit
Every Single Time When I Play This Song
You Came Running In My Mind
Reminiscing All The Collected Memories Of You & Me
Oh God, Is This A Trial For Me?
Though Its Just A Song
But The Lyrics & The Things We Did
At The Time The Song Was Played
Left A Scar Deep Inside Of Me
Everything Was Perfect
But Theres Only 1 Thing....
You're Like A Rose Born With Torns All Over It
You're Protected
You're Loved
& You're Not Mine
Too Bad I Cant Have The Rose To Be Hold
I Cnt Be Selfish
I Cnt Take Whats Not Mine
But At The Same Time
Why Cant I Take My Happiness
Now We're Drifted Apart
Further From Reality
Theres No Way Our Paths Gonna Collide
I Dont Have Any News Of You
I Dont Know How You're Doing
But As Long You're Happy
Im Content
Sometimes You Left Me A Peaceful Dream
& When Im Awake The Thought Of You Crossed My Mind
I Just Wish I Could See You Again
Just By Lookng Into That Eyes Of Yours
The True Feelings Inside Of Me Was Felt
And I Know You're Gonna Fade Away Again
Labels: Youre All I Think
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 4/07/2010 11:58:00 PM.
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Worn Out, Fatigue, Drained Out ...
And INJURIES
All Of These Featuring FUN
That Was What I Had The Whole Day
At Sentosa
With All The Campers FOC
Superb Experience And Perfect Moments
Reached There At Noon
Only To See The Others Seated Down
While Some Were Having Fun
So We Put Our Stuffs And Joined In The Fun
Played Frisbee, Volleyball And Soccer
Really Fun Man, When Everyone's Playing ...
Though It Kept Raining But Just A Drizzle
Lucky NO Sun...haha!
After All The Fun My Group Went For A Swim
Since It Was Boring Just Playing With Water
We Decided To Played Pranks On Our Groupies
Carried Them From Land & Threw Them Inside The Sea
Some Did Some Stunts & Jump While Holding On To Them
In The End, They Took TurnS To Step Onto Me And Jump
Now I Got Cramps On My Leg
Back Sprained & Shoulder Ache
Like Working Out
Finally We Had Enough Of The Beach
And Decided To Pack Up, Get Changed And Leave
Head To Vivo For Our Dinner At 7
I Was Damn Toot Hungry That I Ate
Chicken Rice & Fried Cockles Kway Teow
Still I Was Hungry
WTF!
AAfter Dinner We Played The Dare Game
And It Was Damn Funny
All The Dare That They Came Up With Was Stupid Yet Classic
Imagine At Vivo, Packed With The Public
And You Holding A Rubbish Bin ( Yea The One You See At Shoping Centre)
Carried It And Went Down The Escalator WITH IT
Changed It With The One Below And Went Back Up Again
With The Other Rubbish Bin...HAHA!
The Facial Expression Of The Passer By Was Priceless
They Were Like
" Wat the fcuk is this guy doing "
I Couldnt Take It, That I Burst Out Laughing
There Were A Lot More Dares But That Was One Of The Best
I Took Almost Two Hour To Reach Home, WHY?
Because I Had Difficulty Walking
It Hurts Alot
Still It Wouldnt Stop Me From Having My Supper AT Home
Surprised To See
Father Brought 1 Big Piece Of Chicken Cutlet For Me
YEA!
Going Sleep Soon,Cant Stand The Pain & Fatigue
Labels: We Came And Went
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 4/03/2010 11:54:00 PM.
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She Came Back To Me
And We Mended The Wounds Together
I Just Wanna Say Thanks To You, Wife
For Giving Us A Chance To Get Back What We Used To Be
Everything Seems Find Now,Yea!
Basically We Just Spent Some Time Together Yesterday
I Forgotten Where I Went Other Than The Library
With My 2 Bros
Standard La, When Theres Moon, There Must Be Mus & Naim
We Are Like
....MNM...
Then They Left Me All By Myself
Since They Have Something On
Few Mins,She Came
Fooh Like Princess....
But A Blind One Ah (hehe,joking)
Saw Me But Wasnt Sure It Was Me
Cause Cant See
Must Wait For Me To Greet Her
Like Princess pfft!
Acompanied Me All The Way Till Library Close
Head To Mac
Cause My Stomach Is Calling For Food
2 Double Cheese And An Apple Pie
Went In
But Still Hungry
zzzzzzz
Oh, And We Kept Searching For Handsome Guys And Pretty Girls
All The Way
She Showed Me A Girl (who she thinks is pretty)
But Not For Me
eeeeee...haha
Yet She Forced Me To Agree With Her
Weird, I Know
Im Used To It
heheh
I Really Got Nothing Much To Say Ah
N I Think I Gt Dumber Now
Since Not Been Studying
My English Now Broken Also
Crap....
Today Went Gym
And Was Late For Jamming
haha!
Sorry broks!
I Have To Admit
My Finger Was Not In A Good Mood
With The Guitar
I Duno I Think They Cant Get Along
Cant Play Properly
Messed Up A Few Songs
After Jamm Went TO Join
My Hermes( My Group From Camp )
Didnt Expect The Number Of People To Be Lesser
Pantat
SO I Just Tagged Along
And Go With The Flow
N Was Pissed, Not Really
That They Went Dinner Without Me
I Was Kept Hungry The Whole Time
We Played Pool, Went To Arcade And Went Home
zzzz
Was A Short Event
Cause I Missed Out Most Of It
As I Went Jamming
Before I Continue To Worsen This Post
With My Broken English
I Wanna End It Here
\Sorry Wife, U Cant Cry For This Post
Nothing Emotional ahah!
And Ive Update For You
Even Though The English Is Broken
Labels: You're Happy Im Happy
>> posted by † Deceptions † on 4/01/2010 11:24:00 PM.